Friday, November 20, 2009

Angry Women, Pt 1

This Beautiful Black Marriage
Photograph negative
her black arm: a diving porpoise,
sprawled across the ice-banked pillow.
Head: a sheet of falling water.
Her legs: icicle branches breaking into light.

This woman,
photographed sleeping.
The man,
making the photograph in the acid pan of his brain.
Sleep stain them both,
as if cloudy semen
rubbed shiningly over the surface
will be used to develop their images.

on the desert
the porpoises curl up,
their skeleton teeth are bared by
parched lips;
her sleeping feet
trod on scarabs,
holding the names of the dead
tight in the steady breathing.

This man and woman have married
and travel reciting
chanting
names of missing objects.

They enter a pyramid.
A black butterfly covers the doorway
like a cobweb,
folds around her body,
the snake of its body
closing her lips.
her breasts are stone stairs.
She calls the name, "Isis,"
and waits for the white face to appear.

No one walks in these pyramids at night.
No one walks during
the day.
You walk in that negative time,
the woman's presence filling up the space
as if she were incense; man walks
down the crevices and
hills of her body.
Sounds of the black marriage
are ritual sounds.
Of the porpoises dying on the desert.
The butterfly curtaining the body,
The snake filling the mouth.
The sounds of all the parts coming together
in this one place,
the desert pyramid,
built with the clean historical
ugliness of men dying at work.

If you imagine, friend, that I do not have those
black serpents in the pit of my body,
that I am not crushed in fragments by the tough
butterfly wing
broken and crumpled like a black silk stocking,
if you imagine that my body is not
blackened
burned wood,
then you imagine a false woman.

This marriage could not change me.
Could not change my life.
Not is it that different from any other marriage.
They are all filled with desert journeys,
with Isis who hold us in her terror,
with Horus who will not let us see
the parts of his body joined
but must make us witness them in dark corners,
in bloody confusion;
and yet this black marriage,
as you call it,
has its own beauty.
As the black cat with its rich fur
stretched and gliding smoothly down the tree trunks.
Or the shining black obsidian
pulled out of mines and polished to the cat's eye.
Black as the neat seeds of a watermelon,
or a pool of oil, prisming the light.
Do not despair this "black marriage."
You must let the darkness out of your own body;
acknowledge it
and let it enter your mouth,
taste the historical darkness openly.
Taste your own beautiful death,
see your own photo image,
as x-ray,
Bone bleaching inside the blackening
flesh

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Monday, November 9, 2009

Bad at Blogging

Dear Blog,

I think about you often. I just can't always bring myself to write in(?) you. I fear I am not funny/witty/interesting enough for the internet. I am promising to try harder. Don't hate me- okay? Thanks.

Monday, June 8, 2009

Yellow is the color of my true love's crossbow

I am about to say something very obvious, but I am going to let myself anyway. Music can be so powerful in such unexpected ways. Driving the other day, I was listless, tired, and full of ennui so profound, I must be 21. KRCL then played my Elvis. No, not Elvis Presley or Elvis Costello, but Elvis Perkins. I am not going to say something as trite as "it made me happy" or "feel better." There was just something deeply humanizing and comforting in hearing a voice you love when you really need it. Take a listen:

Shampoo - Elvis Perkins In Dearland

Sunday, June 7, 2009

New Blog

Hi, my name is Danielle, and I am addicted to blogs. I like to read blogs about everything. I read blogs about being a mom (though I am not, and do not ever plan on being one) blogs about German fashionistas, blogs about politics, blogs about anything. Perhaps I am just a voyuer. Only today did it occur to me to start my own blog. In addition to reading blogs, I talk about myself a lot. I am the girl who gets excited about buying new earrings and must tell someone. If I overhear an absurd conversation at the grocery store, I have to tell someone. Granted, I have thoughts more relevant that these, which I enjoy sharing as well. It all sounds very pathetic, and indeed, it often is. However, instead of boring my friends and loved ones with them, I will now instead just shove them into the void which is the internet.